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NgWanTing :B Currently, single. 14 on the 7th, Libra's baby . For more information, add: xiiao_ting@hotmail.com |
4 February 2009 - 03:19  Forget about the past and start afresh (: Guys, i'm back to updating my dead blog. i told you readers i'll only be back afer 2 or 3 months right? but, i already dont like him already that's why i'm back already. haha, thanks for those who has always been with me yar. especially mummy, aiai, jiamin, didi, shihui, and others. thanks for all your care and concern towards me alrights (: i shall start posting about today alright, cos i forgotten what happen yesterday. - today, went to meet chekguan under my block. he damn early reach cans, when he reached i just finish bathing. so chiong go dry hair, tie hair and all those things and went down. saw him, went over to wait for bus and went over to inter. went to mac there and meet up with shihui, jiamin and didi. reached, i went over to meet up with kathrine for awhile. talked to her, and went over to meet up back with the rest. walked over to 925, and saw alvin at inter when going over to 925. said hi and all those and when over to 925 for breakfast (: when to buy food and all those things and sitted down to eat. eat finish already, walked over to inter and bused to school. walk to school and was like almost late lahs, so when over to hall. go hall, sitted behind at the hall as we're so called considered late for hall assembly ._. english - teacher was nagging, and copied notes. recess - saw syaffiq sitting down alone so we went to accompany him and chatted with him while he's doing he's homework, he's such a goodboy. chatted awhile, and zhihui, chekguan, arjun and didi came and find us. went up to hall and sitted down, chatted with zhihui. maths - only copied notes and nothing else. chinese - went to walk around the school and was fun in class nahs. was listening to music and chatting around with didi. projectwork - stayed at class and went over to library to discuss work. was playing around with foundation and my whole foundation just broke. dismissed and went over to meet chekguan and arjun. jiamin, shihui, chekguan and arjun accompined me to meet darren and friends. walked here and there and decided to go northpoint to walk around. went over to have chicken rice and went over to popular to see things. walk here and there and saw damn many nice things bodohs. and valentine day, and alot of people's borthday's coming already. walked here and there, and when over to mini toons to play around. was tired, so went over to longjohn and rested. chatted and finally wanted to go home and rest so home sweet home. - and boy, this time i really told myself to give up already. all the way you was just toying around with my feelings uh? haha, just because you scared i sad then you patch with me? in my whole life time, this is the freaking first time i heard this. you told me you wanted a perfect girl, but i dont think i'm perfect. and in this world, nobody's perfect alright, so stop dreaming .. dont promise me something you couldn't do alright. dont promise me something then after that you broke that promise. i've stop all the thinking of you already, i dont wanna think already. i've lost trust in all those relationship already, no more trust already. cried myself to bed yesterday after finish talking with darren. i kept reading the message you send me, i really cant believe it you know? yes, my friends are right, they told me you would hurt me again. and true enough, you really hurt me again and again .. seriously, i changed my attitude because of you, i stop scolding badwords cos of you. and yet? what did i gain? yes, i gain back nothing in the end. why am i so foolish to have like you from the beginning? seriosly, after all thise incidents that had happen, i dont blame you at all. infact, i only blame myself for falling in love with you again and again. trusting you that you wont hurt me again, but you proved me wrong. i wont trust you again, totally lost all the trust on you already, no more trust .. after this incident, i only know that i cant trust you so much, i'm so foolish. i shouldnt even have trusted you from the very beginning, haish. hurting me again and again, i'm tired already alright. i dont trust love anymore, what's love to me? its nothing to me already yar. friends told me i can find better guys then you but why i cant let you go? its because i'm deeply in love with you, but now no more, no more (: i wont be so freaking stupid to trust you again already. i must learn not to be so stubborn, i must forget you and move on with my life. i can't always wait for you to come back to me right, i dont need you. i told myself yesterday, yesterday was the last day i drop tears for you. no more tears for you in future already, i made a promise to myself. i wont because of a tree give up the entire forest alright? (: i still remember ' kai xin yi dian , jui de bu qu xin de bu lai ' i wont becuase of you i ruin my whole mood alright, i'll be as cheerful like last time. i dont know what you excatly wants, but i wont be patching with you already. i'm gonna forget you, forget the past and start afresh! - mummy and aiai, thanks for all the words that you told me alright. although we arent as close as last time already, but i still love you. thanks for begin there for me always when i need you alright. hope to meet up with you guys soon alright, miss you guys tons. mummy, i'm sure we can grow old together alrights *laugh meet up with you guys real soon, and text me more often nahs. haha, ilove you guys yar <3 - jiamin, thanks for all your comfortings yar. i know he's not the only guy in this world, haha. i'm sure i can find someone who is better then him de lahs. and hor, stop suan-ing him already lahs >< lol, and remember what i told you in msn just know uhs. forget the past and start afresh (: - didi, thanks for begin there with me always alright. remember the promise you made to me alright, haha. 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